Hi, my name is Attila. Welcome to my website.
My passion and the purpose of this website is to help you find happiness and natural confidence that will last. This includes mastering your mind, emotions, habits and physical health.
The information provided here will help you see the bigger picture and will break down difficult concepts for you into an easy to understand format. This will help you to understand and only focus on what has the biggest impact on reaching these goals.
I was born in Hungary and I’ve lived in the UK since 2012.
Being brought up by a paranoid schizophrenic mother and an abusive grandmother while being constantly bullied from the age of 3 until the age of 16 had very quickly made me severely socially anxious. Combined with my Asperger’s it took a lot of conscious effort over the decades to become socially confident and an effective communicator.
I had many traumatic experiences in the past. Such as losing 4 homes, starvation and years of homelessness.
Panic attacks, depression, suicide attempts and the absolute darkest psychological experiences available to a human being.
Obesity, chronic fatigue syndrome, Crohn’s Disease, candida, food allergies. Then bulimia, anorexia and so many serious illnesses that I’ve cured all, I won’t even list them all here.
I had also lost my entire social circle that made me face all of this alone. What I’m going to share with you here is just a fraction of what I’ve been through. You’ll get to learn more about my journey by subscribing to my newsletter below.
Let’s see what happened in just a little bit more detail.
At the age of 12, probably because of the bullying, I developed a very bad stammering. I felt very ashamed of it and for the first time, I began to fight back against my limitations. With a few years of intense effort, I made the stammering go away.
In secondary school, I managed to learn a lengthy piece of writing word by word in just 5 minutes. After that, my head teacher started having high expectations towards me and began treating me as a genius. As a result, my IQ and confidence levels received a much-needed boost.
I finally stepped up to the bullies ruthlessly in secondary school and that put an end to them bullying anyone in the school ever again. This was a great growth experience.
Repeatedly losing our homes in sudden and traumatic ways made me depressed and experience frequent fear of death, panic attacks, and obsessive-compulsive behavior.
A couple of years later I had a spiritual awakening with my dying dog.
From a state of being medicated with neurosis, I ended up having a profound awakening experience.
My ego disappeared for hours while I was experiencing pure consciousness.
The contrast between these two was immense. That is what really started me on my spiritual and personal development journeys.
I went to meditation retreats and did weekly holotropic breathwork sessions for a year and a half. I did active and sitting meditation, different forms of therapy, firewalks. I had experience with every form of energy healing and self-help method that was available to me at the time and even got trained in some.
My fascination with human needs and Nonviolent Communication started at the same time around 2006. I became a lifelong practitioner of Nonviolent Communication and began my studies at University in psychology.
I had a grand vision at that time. I wanted to be a major driving force for the prophesied shift in collective consciousness around 2012.
I was feeling unstoppable and so pure at the same time. Little did I know that my at the time unrecognized past hurts and traumas would not let me keep shining for more than a few years.
Two years on we were about to lose yet another home. It was obvious that we couldn’t afford to pay my university fees either. I became a lifelong passionate student of psychology, regardless.
I decided to go to India. I ended up staying for a year, in a remote village high up in the Himalaya in Himachal Pradesh. I managed to get my hands on half a ton of quartz crystals there that I scattered on the floor of my guesthouse room. An Indian friend of mine sourced the rarest and most recently discovered crystals on the planet for me to be able to meditate with.
Going back to Hungary I became a 100% raw vegan for 3 years to increase my sensitivity to the energies in my environment and my own body. I was living as a hermit in a remote little village, did months of fasting on green juices alone, combined with enemas.
I’ve tried many different types of diets and became an expert in nutrition. Because of my level of mindfulness, I became aware of how my thoughts, beliefs, and expectations about food were creating its effects on my mind and body more so than the food itself.
Today I can eat virtually any kind of food without it having a negative effect on my state of mind. From a grounded bodily awareness I eat what my body desires in the moment instead of trying to censor it following my head.
I was also using the most modern and ancient spiritual technologies to expand my consciousness at a rapid rate, wanting to realize my full potential. This included everything, ranging from a very irresponsible, “power” use of yogic breathwork and energy work all the way to constantly listening to brainwave entrainment audios even while sleeping, for years.
Among the positive outcomes was spontaneously discovering how to have a full body internal energy orgasm without knowing anything about tantra. Another was discovering how to do telekinesis with plants.
This happened at the same time together with a devastating heartbreak, starving, homelessness, and developing a number of chronic diseases.
Bulimia, anorexia, and bipolar depression joined the ranks. Triggered by relationship breakdown I experienced an acute identity crisis and severe losses in multiple areas at once. But we were still just warming up.
Because then a complete catastrophe ensued. I got to experience the darkest psychological experiences available to a human being as a creative response my mind gave to what was happening.
It’s been a long journey since then back to integration and wholeness.
These challenges had made me hit rock bottom in all 3 major life areas and had become the driving force for the transformation that happened eventually.
A transformation of consciousness, identity, and character.
I was so stubbornly attached to wanting to be special that I refused to ask for help. I wanted to figure it all out on my own, and for the most part, I did. I had to release the patterns and conditionings that didn’t serve me, because of the intense suffering and suicidal thoughts they were causing.
It`s been a humbling process of letting go of layers of illusion, beliefs, and self-images one after the other. In this sense, I’ve committed suicide many times over.
Only when the healing was mostly done, did I become willing to finally learn from others. From people like Tony Robbins, Morty Lefkoe, T. Harv Eker. My need to feel significant by making others less important was gone for good. I finally stopped criticizing spiritual masters, like Eckhart Tolle, Ramana Maharshi, and Osho, giving them the credit they deserved.
I’m going to share with you what I’ve learned on this journey. How I’ve mastered my mind, my health and my relationship with whatever life brings me in the present moment.
I’ll do this hoping that you might face your circumstances and own negative thinking with equanimity and a deep sense of joy like I tend to do. I can’t think of a greater blessing one can receive in life than this.
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